Making sure all is well

I had my usual chat with "italiano amante". He greets me every morning, asking how I am doing? Tells me he has been thinking of me. Calls me sexy and beautiful. Is he trying to get some brownie points here? He says he has to go to a meeting but before he goes, he wants to hear my voice. So he calls me and we talk briefly.

I'm working away on the computer and I get an instant message from "Mr Comeback". He asks if it's okay to call? I paused and said sure. He rarely calls unless it's something serious. He just wanted to hear from my own words that I am okay. Which I am. He was a bit speechless and unsure what to say about my whole situation. Telling me that a sweet, caring and loving person doesn't deserve this. I shrugged and said what is done is done and now I have to deal with it. He met someone and they both like each other very much. They haven't taken it to the next level, meaning sex. He feels a bit awkward talking about them. I need to be able to handle this and be a friend to him. It does hurt when I hear about other people having sex, knowing that I may never have sex again. But I have to get over it and move on. He made it clear that he has no intention of bailing on me and will be there for support. I was touched by this.

Then I get an email from "JAG". He is doing good and sent hopes that I am in good spirits. His message was brief but I know he's concern and he too would not abandon me as a friend.

"Surfer" someone I mentioned briefly has been supportive as well. He has met someone and feels weird talking about his sexual romps. Again, I don't mind hearing about it.

"Darling One" is such a lover. He still know how to get my juices going and our chats always consists of a little flirting, sex talk and cybering. He has been there through my ups and downs. We know chances of us meeting in person is impossible. He calls me his "cyber lover" and friend.

"Opus" has been busy and it's been awhile since we've chatted. Not sure how he puts up with my problems and venting. But he does and just like "Darling One" these two have been there since I started writing this blog. Which is almost 2 years..wow!