From the famous words by Wayne Newton..danke shoen

"Thank you for the joy and pain"

Pretty much sums up my thoughts of 2006.

JOY
I got to meet and know countless men. Met 4 in person, 3 out of 4 isn't bad. One became my soul mate and the other 2 are friends with possible benefits. I had my first affair and I got to feel the passion and desire that two people can ignite. Most importantly, I made new friends. "Priceless"

PAIN
Searching and being frustrated in finding a lover. Not having sex for a long time and the emptiness of it. My bad date with one of the men I met in person. Made me realize that I am actually not that attractive. Hearing the bad news that my friend has 10 years to live and just recently another friend has parkinson and will be having brain surgery in the summer. Both men I have known for about a lil over a year.

Good Vibrator-sations

She loves the size and contour
And the soft hum it makes
Rubbing against her clit and lips
And slowly entering inside her

She is feeling good vibrations
Giving her great sensations
Her body is feeling excitations

Closing her eyes
She turns it up a notch
Hitting the erogenous spot
Putting pressure in that one area
Building up the tension

She sits up savoring the feeling
With it still inside her vibrating
The intesity gets strong
She grabs on to the blanket tightly
Her toes start to curl
And YES she gives in to pure ecstasy and pleasure

She is feeling good vibrations
Giving her intense sensations
Yes..yes..feeling excitations

She is lovin them good vibrations
A happenin to her

Sort of a blind date

A woman I met from the Married Secrets chat room sends me a message on messenger. We've become some what friends, but not close. We'll joke and kid in the chat room. Occasionally, chat on messenger. Now she rarely sends me one, so I kind of wondered what she was up to. She tells me she knows this guy who lives in Southern California but he visits my area on business. Would I be interested in chatting with him? I thought to myself, what's wrong with him and why aren't you sinking your claws into him? LOL Her excuse was that she is way too far for him and she has some one she is already interested in.

This new guy, Mr O.C. He and I started chatting on Friday briefly. A friendship developed and for him an instant attraction. Me on the other hand, I was cautious. Now things have changed and yes I find myself attracted to him. He visits my area for business, once or twice a month.

Last week he was here, but it was too soon to meet. At least for me. He exchanged conversation on messenger and I actually talked to him on the phone. I couldn't talk long because too many ears around me and he understood this.

I will post more about him later..

He's got a way to please her
Don't why it is
But she smiles when she's with him

He touches her with gentle caresses
Entices her with soft kisses
Makes her feel whole
With the passion and desire
Igniting the fire within
Anyway

He's got a way of talkin
Don't know why it is
But she soon reveals her
Inner deep sexual fantasies
That only two people share intimately

He's got a way to move her
As she moans and cries
With pleasure
Making her feel alive

Merry Christmas

Have a safe and naughty Christmas!!! I mean nice...=0)

Could sex be on his mind or was he just horny?

And he blames me for his hard on. LOL Sugar Bear and I were on messenger. Our conversation so far was "clean." I get back from lunch and well I got a half day so I was finishing off things at my desk.

He types "That he slowly unbuttons my blouse and kisses my neck and skin. His tongue licking over one breast and making it's way to my nipple. Licking and sucking, feeling it get hard in his mouth. Whoa?" He goes on about teasing my breasts and nipples. As I read this, I stick out my chest a bit, visualizing what he is doing. Then he gets to the part where he puts my hand on his penis, nice way to call it. "wink" I smile to myself and don't let him get away with what he is doing. I chime in. Telling what I would do to his "penis" and then my phone rings.

He's like "woman what are you doing to me?" I'm like hello? You started it. He said that he is so hard that he had to get up and walk around the wherehouse. Damn the way you were typing I just want to throw you on top of these pallets and do you right here. Now that would have been a sight to see huh?? Every time I arouse him, whether it's sex talk or what I am wearing, he tells me that his jeans are getting tighter and there is a huge bulge.

We were suppose to meet this weekend but it's the holiday.

I've been tagged

Here is my list of "6 weird things that I do".

1. Dip french fries in mayonnaise.

2. When I eat a bagel. I cut it in half (toasted of course). I spread a little, take a bite and eat, then I do it again over and over until I finish it. I never spread cream cheese on the entire bagel.

3. The smell of softener on a load of laundry just out of the dryer. I like putting it against my face feeling the softness and the smell. It give me a warm fuzzy feeling. One time my friend took out a load of laundry from the dryer and put it in the bed. I actually jumped on the bed and rolled around in it. It's like catnip to me. :)

4. When I go to the gym, I only use machines that are on the last row. I don't like having some one behind me checking out my ass.

5. I do not like riding in convertibles. It messes up my hair. Thing is I don't mind the wind blowing my hair, when I am walking.

6. When it comes to touching a man's cock. I always give the guy a look like "can I touch it?" It's like I am waiting for his permission to proceed. He will give some sort of signal that let's me know. I guess it's my upbringing. My parents made sure that I was well-mannered and polite.

It may be little...

But it's pretty powerful. It's not quiet or loud but it has this soft buzz. And when you stick it inside, man it felt good. Nice way to wake up and start my morning. Yes, it's waterproof. Stuck it inside. Feeling the soft vibrations and the buzz in my pussy. With the steam of the shower. Positioning it in the right place and holding it there. Then it hits my g-spot. Causing me to gasp as I climax, holding on for a moment not giving into the orgasm and suddenly I can't take it. I bend over a little, with it pulsating my pussy, one arm against the wall and the other pushing it and holding it in the right area as I begin to cum and let out a soft moan and scream. Wow that was awesome! I cleaned it up and put it in my purse.

Perhaps for some afternoon delight at the office? "wink"

My big adventure at the adult store

This is a different store from the one that I went with with my friends. I walked past it, hesitated and then walked in. There was a couple checking, the woman was giggling and the guy was smiling. I walked straight to the dildos and vibrators. I knew what I wanted but didn't see it there. Of course the stuff on online isn't available in the store.

I browsed, checking out what they had. I was standing at the lubes, condoms and mouth dams. This guy was standing right next to me and I noticed he was staring at my ass. But I ignored it and didn't make it obvious I knew what he was doing. Finally, I got what I wanted and went up to the cashier.

She saw what I got and give this smile and gave me the elevator eyes. You know what that is? When you check a person from head to toe. This case it was head to waist. After she did that she gave me this odd smile. Yes, she was flirting me. I am like holy crap! I smile back of course not realizing what she was doing. I bought something else and she didn't noticed it. It was hiding under something, so she forgot to ring it up. She blushed and proceeded to flirt with me again and she said to enjoy my purchases and please come again. I told her to have a nice day and walked out. Was she cute? Yes, she was. Not that I noticed. "wink"

Yes, this is my first time going into a store like this all by myself. I'm learning...LOL

Living a double life

Being the loving wife. Taking care of the cooking, cleaning and pampering her husband. He shows affection with kisses, hugs, groping her breasts and ass. LOL Saying or doing things that make her laugh and smile. Cuddling together, sharing little kisses and just maybe..sex.

Being the lover. Discreet. Secretive. Passionate. Sexually driven. Pleasuring. Orgasmic. Desirable. Exploring. Erotic. Climatic. Lusting. Aching.

Not sure about this guy

SurferMD, I met through Ashley. The conversations went well. We talked about our situation what, we are lacking. Chatted about sex. He lives far from me.

He said he has not met anyone close, I am the closest and only woman who will talk to him. Okay, that sounds weird. I have seen his picture and he is not bad looking. He has been trying to set up a meeting and I was honest with him saying I am not interested. He then started to sound desperate. Then at the end of the last conversation he said he did not want to burden me and he logged off. I have not heard from him since. He would be logged on but he would not send me a message. I decided to clean up my buddy list and removed his name.

Well, tonight he sends me a message. I typed "I did not think I would hear from you since our last conversation." He types, why do you say that? His excuse was that he must have been at work and he was not in a good mood. To him, everything was peachykin.

Now he wants to meet me. He has been thinking of me. Saying that we found each other and we should just hook up just once. I told him I am not into a one time thing and he should find a woman who lives close to him. His mood seemed go down because he's like well you are the one I want and if you aren't interested then I will just leave you alone. Sorry for bothering you. I say bye and he says bye. Then he has the nerve to ask me if I have more pictures. I'm like, no. He types back, just remember I am still interested in you okay? I type back ok. Then he tells me his real name, which I remember. He's like, don't forget it.

Next time he sends me a message, this conversation will be a blank in his mind and he will be all happy and think I am interested. Then the same scenario happens again. Not sure what kind of game he is playing.

Alrighty then...weirdo?

Shopping for ME

I posted about my day with the girls at the adult store. Percy commented that I didn't say what I bought. Well, me being the shy one, I didn't get anything.

I'm going back, alone to get a few things. I used to have "toys" but I threw them away when my boyfriend who is now my husband, started dating. Silly me.

Now, I get to buy new toys!! I have my eyes on a waterproof vibrator and a mini one that I can discreetly use or put in my purse for those spur of the moment urges. "wink" And I have to agree with Cheri on her comment of the designs or choice of colors for the vibrators. This one has tiger markings.

Yes, I guess they want us women to think we are tigress on the prowl and ready to purrr. "meow!"

This weekend put me in a sad mood

Aside from Percy's father having surgery and I'm glad that it went well. The emotional and physical state still lingers on. You worry about the surgery, if it goes well. Then you have to deal with the days after. Will he recovery quickly? Are there other dangers? I went through that with my mother. Her health kept failing her and she was rushed to the hospital several times with complications one after the other. It takes a toll on the body and mind. You just have to be strong and to rely on family and friends for support. Don't keep it bottled inside, it won't do you any good.

Another thing..a friend. Someone I've known not that long, tells me he won't live to see his 50th birthday. He's in his late 30's. He was very sick as a kid and his health is failing slowly. That is why he has no intentions of having kids, because he won't live long enough to see them grow up. He said he didn't want to be revived and to just let him die. I asked him if there was anything he wanted to do before he died. His response was, not really. The conversation we were having wasn't a happy one. But he's prepared for it and he knows what to expect. Doctor said he may not live that long maybe another 10 years. Well, I am glad to have met him and for being a part of my life. He felt the same way.

Ok, I promise myself not to think of this or mention it again with him. It will only make us sad. Scarlett..think happy thoughts.

Never a dull moment with her

Rosie is never boring to shop with. She was trying on this wrap around skirt. I came up to her and she had this confused look on her face. Ah, this doesn't seem right, she says. The part that is suppose to be on the side where it's opened is up front, so you can see her private area. She then open it up and goes "woo! you can see my pussy!" Of course she has underwear on.

I started busting out laughing and I said "easy access for the men". She's trying to hold her laugh and says "am I suppose to show my beaver?" I am in tears from laughing and walked away. Thank goodness there was mostly women around and she was in one of the dressing rooms.

She ended up not getting the skirt.

What a lil prick

I was bummed out last night. There is this guy I met through Ashley about 2 months ago? We've only chatted 5 times?

He got all bent out of shape when he found out I met other guys. That I don't have time for him. The guy lives far away from me. I've told him he should not just focus or rely on me and move on. He's like no, you are the only one I'm interested and I am not really looking. Yea, BS!

Last night he gets this attitude on messenger. Saying I led him on and waah waah..And he ends our conversation with "you were a waste of my time." He signs off.

At that moment those words hurt and I felt sad. I did get some comfort from Mr Painter. He said that I am pretty straight forward and that I should just get over it. The guy was being dick.
Ah well, a new day! And I removed the lil prick off my messenger and put him on my ignore list. Let's see if he tries to contact me.

Bounce in her stride

The weather was nice, so she thought about going for a walk. With ear phones on and no music playing she walks in the elevator. There is one guy there. She rarely speaks to him, let alone him saying hi to her. But this was different, he notices the jacket slightly unzipped showing some skin. She wore a tank top underneath, so it looks like she isn't wearing anything. He glances at her see that she has ear phones and she looking straight. He says hello and she notices this and smiles and says hello. The doors open and she walks out the building.

The music is playing and she starts walking. Depending on the beat, she walks to it. Her hips swaying side to side. Her step going in motion with the beat. Noticing her shadow on the street pavement, she sees her hips sway. Every now and then she has this bounce as she walks.

She is aware that people notice this, especially men. To her, she blocks her surroundings and focus on the beat.

She heads back to the office. Walking toward the elevators, a co worker across from her is walking to the elevators too. She turns off the music and removes the ear phones. Her co worker comments "ah, you had ear phones on, no wonder you had that little bounce as you walked."

Yes, I met Sugar Bear in person

The post about me shopping and meeting someone. That was Sugar Bear. After that we've still been in touch. There were moments when I sense that he wanted to put his arm around me when we were on the escalator and I confronted him on this. He said he wanted to but didn't want to scare me off.

As for the scenario with me at the store, removing my jacket. He was in line paying for something. I was browsing and decided to remove the jacket because it was warm. As I took it off, I looked over to where he was and saw him looking. Judging by the look in his eyes and his smile, he liked what he saw. I immediately looked away and started to blush of course he didn't see this. He tells me a few days later via messenger, that I had a very nice body and a cute little ass. Of course I didn't see his because his shirt was covering. I could have asked him to lift it up for me to see the goods. LOL

Every time I mention that day and the clothes I'm wearing when we are chatting or talking he says "damn it suddenly got hot in here!." Yes, he wants to see me again. I'm not sure when, because we both have conflicting schedules.

I was being a tease and he's like "wait till I get you alone, you are going to get it." Famous last words huh?? "wink"

Over 10,000 visits???

I was expecting this to happen by the end of the year. I estimated wrong! ;)

Update to "let's see if he takes the offer"

Can't believe I worked today! I'm exhausted and tired. When I get a chance I will post details. But alas, you people will have to wait a bit for the next post. My schedule will be hectic and busy the couple of days.

I will leave you with this..........he took the bait indeed and I reeled him in! I'm trying to recover from it all. Woo hoo!!

Instant message tag

Opus and I seem to be missing each other. I keep getting offline messages. Emails wishing that he can chat with me but can't because it's blocked at work. I had a solution to that and passed it on to him.

Finally! I we got a chance to let out some dirty laundry, no pun intended Opus. :)

We got to know a little more about each other. He calls me a tease. I said "bite me!" He's like see what I mean? He got a sneak preview of what was going on in my life and I haven't had a chance to post it yet on my blog.

He's a great guy. Makes me laugh. Quick witted sense of humor. Most of all, a good friend. Yes, he finds me intriguing, cute, sexy "hah" and very straight forward.

Thank you sweetie for keeping me company and making my day filled with laughter and your wisdom.

Let's see if he takes the offer

The sexual tension has been building up. I told him, "I'm working tomorrow, you know how to reach me." He is aware of this. Judging by the tone of his voice, I know he's thinking how can he get away. So you will be at work tomorrow he asks to make sure. Yes, I respond back.

I've laid the cards on the table and if things go well, I may be laying on the table. "wink" I told him no pressure. If he can find time, that is okay and if not, no worries. I won't be disappointed or hurt, this I assured him. I am not going to get my hopes up.

This is all up to him and we'll see if he takes the bait.