Life seems at a stand still

Have I lost my sex appeal? What I once had, is it gone?? Do men not find me attractive? Am I at a point in my life that sex does not exist?

The times that I did have sex was that it? Is it the end of my chapter for hot, passionate sex?

Or will there be a new beginning and adventure for me waiting in the wings??

I am such a troublemaker..heehee

I just sent a "certain someone" a picture of me. Well..I am not going to say much about it but it is tasteful. The subject line read "Just for you, make sure you are alone". In the message I typed "Here's a little some thing to make you smile and..want ME!" I just hope he wasn't in a meeting and all of sudden sees the picture or he gets an email alert and his wife is near him. I know for sure, thoughts will be clouding his mind once he sees it....Man I am such a flirt!

Received an offline message on messenger

It was from someone who came across my blog. He took the opportunity to instant message. That was a bold move. I usually receive an email from my readers, so this was unusual and I was flattered. We got to chat last night. He liked how open I was. My stories of my lovers and I. How sensual and sexual I write. I told him I have been busy lately and I've taken a break from being or finding a lover. My blog seems to be a bit boring. He said "let me be the judge of that!" Well, he just came across it and started reading it.

I know I have a lot of new and regulars who read my blog. I'd like to hear from a few of you. Don't be shy..I don't bite! Unless you want me to "LOL".

They are no different

Here I sit in a chair with wheels. Sitting on the couch is Rosie reading a magazine. On the other side of the room is Wendy on the computer. She is going through this singles dating service and checking the profiles. Of course she is laughing at a few of them, especially how they describe themselves. Both Rosie and I interpret what they are actually saying. I saw a few pictures and asked "no way is this guy that good looking and he is SINGLE??" He is probably married or has a girlfriend and just wants a fuck buddy.

Rosie calls me over. So I am rolling back and forth. As either one calls me over to look at some thing. Then it dawns on me. These two are looking for a "boyfriend" but end up just having sex with the men and never hearing from them again. They seem to have luck in meeting men. As for me, I am looking for a lover but can't seem to hold on to one. Little do they know my "secret". I joke about hooking up with a guy..

A lover is like fine wine

Every woman has her own personal response to each man she tries. Experience "tasters" agree on the meaning of certain terms.

BODY: Thickness "fullness". Masculine, broad shouldered, fit, average-bodied.

There is a size for every occasion. Length for the deep penetration. Width for tight corners and feeling herself stretch. All shapes and sizes to satisfy her cravings.

Getting the biggest bang! In the thrill of the hunt. Finding that perfect partner for her specific "taste".

How long will it last? Making the most out of it. Savoring the "taste" and moment. Making her hum and moan with delight and pure enjoyment.

At the end, feeling content and satisfied with her choices.

Wanting

My dreams seem so vivid. His touch. His lips. That kiss. Hearing his voice sends a warmth through my body. Sending thrills and chills, making me surrender myself to him. Having him do as he wishes to me. Knowing exactly what to say and do to make me moan and cry out for more. I wake up from this "dream" leaving me breathless and wet. Is it just a dream?

I am so determined and patient for it to cum true....

Sex must have been in the air

I needed a few things from the "sex store". It doesn't phase me at all, if I run into anyone I know. To be honest, I don't feel embarrassed. I knew what I was looking for, so I just went in. Found what I wanted. But then they had some interesting things, so I browsed.

To my surprise there was A LOT of people. Couples and friends. The atmosphere was bubbly. People checking out the varieties of vibrators and toys. And the cashiers didn't look at you in a creepy way. I like this place because the people working there are cool and so far they were female. They must have done well in sales.

Train of thoughts

Scarlett is in a down mood. Feeling the walls closing in. Loneliness. Have I lost my sex appeal? Will I ever feel the passion of great sex? It's been so long, not sure I remember how? There seems to be a light in the tunnel but it was just a flicker and I feel like I am losing hope. The man I thought would fulfill me sexually, seems to have faded away. I am thinking too much into this and I should just be patient and wait.

I am just so darn HORNY!!!!

Nooooo..our plans have been canceled!!

I get an e-mail with cursing symbols from Gelibter. "Sorry babe, can't make it tonight and then a long explanation, hope you understand". Yes, understanding is a big factor when it comes to having an affair.

I'm still on cloud nine from last week's meeting. Speaking of last week, I just realized that I got felt up TWICE! Once by Gelibter and other time by my female co-worker. We were in an office and the power was out for a brief moment. She holds on to me and being the funny one, she does a soft cupping of my boob. Thank god for the padding on the bra! LOL Cause I barely felt it.

I told Gelibter this and he said "oh gee thanks for letting me know this" and I knew he was smiling because of the tone of his voice. I sent him an e-mail and wrote "I guess I am going to have to entertain myself tonight. Wishing it was you down there, instead of my fingers." Yes, I am such a tease!

Hello again my friend

I mentioned about making the first move and calling a guy. Well, he and I met. Finally! He looked adorable. Both of us were giddy with excitement and at the same time nervous. He asked "coffee or just talk in the car"? I opted with talking in the car. He parked at a secluded area. We turned to face each other. I was focused on his mouth as he talked. Noticing how tiny it was and what color were his eyes? He was smiling from ear to ear and at times he would blush shyly for no reason.

When I was talking, he never took his eyes off me. Which would make me blush but I didn't even look away. I just kept talking. Judging from his body language there was some thing that he wanted to do so badly that in mid conversation, he leaned closed and grab the back of my head and brought me close for a kiss. His mouth felt so good against mine. The kiss was awesome! We would talk and in between we would steal kisses. He couldn't keep his hands off me. His hand would brush against her breast. He would cup it and softly nibble her nipple through her blouse. It made me squirm and I pushed him away. Other was, people were walking by so they had to behave.

I had to get back to the office and so did he. We kissed one more time and I was about to leave but I had to kiss him again. He had his hand on my leg and I turned around to open the door, which was locked. Ok, are you trying to keep me here, I turned to look at him? Oh, I guess I should unlock the door and we both laughed. As I go out he grabbed my ass and the smacked it quick. Barely missing me. I couldn't stop smiling as I walked back.

Yes, I was on cloud nine all day!

Was it just her imagination?

Or did this really happen? It was written all over her face. Judging from the smile and glow about her. She was guilty for some thing, but what? The way her eyes danced and sparkled. She looked a bit flushed in the face. Thinking back to what just happened, she lets out a sigh and then smiles. Her mouth is a bit sore from it. When she thinks no one is noticing, she will take a finger and touch it lightly over her lips. Reminsciing..

It was an awkward moment for both. Most importantly, they missed each other. They started talking but she just couldn't resist his boyish smile. She can tell in his body language and his face, that he wanted to pull her close and plant a wet one. He leans close, puts his hand on the back of her neck and they kiss. It felt so good feeling his mouth over hers. She wanted so badly to put a hand on his crotch but she didn't want to move too fast. His hand massaged her breast and he felt her nipple peaking through her sweater. She pulled his hand away. His other hand made its way on her back under the sweater. Oh my god, your hands are cold! He pulled it away. Things were going too quick and they knew that there wasn't much time. They were like teenagers making out. His lips against hers, his tongue in her mouth and she biting his lower lip. It was hot and passionate! Some thing she never imagined that would happen again.

They had to say good bye. She got out of the car and he could not take his hands off her. He had to grab her ass and gave it a quick smack. She smiled and said "next time will be much better." They kiss once more but neither wanted to go. Sigh..they had to.

It felt oh so good, just too good to be true. Someone needs to pinch her to make sure it was not just a dream....

Can I just lay here a bit longer?

Yes, it is the first day of 2008. No, I did not have sex to end one year or begin the new year. Bummer huh? As I woke up and wiped the sleep from my eyes. I actually had a smile on my face. Looking at the clock I noticed it was past noon. Oh wow, I sure did sleep in!

For the first time, I have not signed on messenger and have no intention to. I did check my emails. Opus emailed me wishing me a happy new year. And I got another email that put a very big smile on my face.


I sit here..TOPLESS and in such a good mood!