Just had a "hallmark" moment

I'm going through my emails and noticed a few from JAG. All of a sudden..I started to tear up and cry. I am thinking to myself "get a hold of yourself, people at work will wonder". I was able to stop and keep my composure.
Out of the group of men whom I have had an affair with, this one is pretty special to me. He was the one that said an affair isn't for him and I abide by his decision. We do keep in touch and remain as friends. Both of us have to move on. At least I did, not sure if he is seeing anyone and if he does, well good for him.

I've been asked which lover is the best. Each one is unique in their own special way. Of course when I had my first affair, I thought he was great lover. But through time with the lovers, it got better.