411 on my marriage

And why am I contemplating the thought of "cheating"? Finally, it will be revealed.

Like most marriages, I'm lonely. We have sex but not as often as we did before. I miss getting oral. The different positions. Having sex more than once a day or week. His work keeps him busy (he doesn't travel but there are times when he works at home). We get our signals crossed when we want sex.

The sex is good between us. He is very attentive, loving and caring. We have arguments but they aren't fatal.

I feel like I want more. Just the thought of secrecy intrigues me. Dreaming and fantasizing about it. The private meetings, intimate moments and secret kisses. To live two separate lives and return back to reality. Without any regrets or drama. Just to "discreetly" enjoy each other's company.

Reading blogs of others writing about their affairs and the sex involved encourages me even more. "sigh" So I'm not sure if I can actually go through with it. One part of me says "YES!", go for it and the other just wants to build a wall or distance to any possible suitor.