An ex-lover is back in my life

"Stan" and I weren't quite exclusive, it was all about the sex in our relationship. A friendship did develop as well. I met him during my single days. Not sure how we drifted apart, but the communication between was minimal. Once a year he would send and e-mail, I respond back and a year later I get a response from him. This happens for a couple of years.

In the beginning of this year, he contacts me via e-mail and then we started instant messaging. I asked about his family, work and life. If he was still with the same girlfriend, he said she is now his wife and they have kids. He asked me how my family, work and life was. I said I am married as well.

Our instant message were just basic questions of how our day is going, any plans for the weekend, how was your weekend and etc. Nothing sexual. I got the feeling that he was thinking it when he asks me if I have any fantasies or dreams. I say no. Testing him a bit. Finally last Thursday I bring up the question "have you ever cheated during your marriage?" He said no, the thought has crossed his mind but never did anything about it. Then he asks if I have and I said no. Yes, I have thought of it as well.

Last Friday, everything is revealed by him. The conversation became interesting and a shock to me. It's long so I'll just write the juicy stuff...

This is what he typed: I've thought of this for awhile but never felt comfortable doing it with just anyone. I actually prayed about this believe it or not. Asking god to bring someone into my life. I asked so what happened? Well..I am talking to you again. When we get together I will tell you the reasons to why I was praying. I miss a lot of things and believe it, I would think of you quite often. Do you remember our first time? I remember all the times we were together. That time we were sleeping and you starting sucking on my cock or in the morning as well. Man, those were good times. Most importantly I miss your breasts, sucking on them.

Hearing all this caught me by surprise and at the same time I was blushing. I never really thought that I can have such an effect like this on any man. It baffles me. Most of them say it's my sensuality.

He and I are suppose to meet up and talk. I'll keep you updated on this one.