Today is the day that I need a...hug

I need a friend. Some one that I can cry on their shoulder. A person understands my frustrations and feels what I feel. A private friend, who I can share my secrets and thoughts.

It's been a rough day. I'm getting over the flu. I have "the artist" who is anxious to meet and have sex. Am I rushing this? Honestly, yes I am. I really have to sit back and look at the big picture. What do I really want?

Do I give up on finding a lover? Not let it interfere with my work and personal life. I feel so burned out. My energy is drained and believe it or not..I haven't thought about sex.

At times I just want to cry.