You Are In My Thoughts..

This was expected and only time will tell
And when it finally HAPPENS
You are engulfed with mixed emotions
Do you cry? A numbness takes over
You are not in the right state of mind
The waiting is over and you are left empty
Your friends and family are there to comfort you
But you must be strong for them and yourself

Now comes the healing
Preparations and people giving their sympathies and condolences
A part of you tries to smile but when no one is looking
Sadness and emptiness is felt
Regrets of the bad times or words that were exchanged from the past surface
And you wished that you could tell him "I'm sorry"

Keep his spirit alive
Talk, reminisces, smile and laugh
He will forever live on in your heart
Keep his memory alive with the happy and sad times
He will be looking down from the heavens watching over you

At times, I would lay on the bed before I go to sleep. Staring up at the ceiling, I'm thinking of you. Hoping that you are okay and then I hug the pillow close to my chest. Closing my eyes I imagine hugging you..

I am your child.
Wherever you go, you take me, too.
Whatever I know, I learn from you.
Whatever I do, you taught me to do.
I am your child.
And I am your chance.
Whatever will come, will come from me.
Tomorrow is won, by winning me.
Whatever I am, you taught me to be.
I am your hope,
I am your chance,
I am your child.
Lyrics from "I am your Child" by Barry Manilow