This wasn't suppose to happen

Here I thought Tigg was all calm and relaxed. Me being the one all nervous and hesitant and him acting like this whole thing doesn’t faze him. Well, the truth comes out.

Yesterday he confesses that he gets “knots in his stomach.” He has been freaking out and worried that his wife is going to find out about him cheating. Now the clincher….he has feelings for me. Deep feelings. He’s like “this wasn’t supposed to happen and I’m not supposed to be feeling this.” We were to just be friends and just have sex.

I asked him “do you just want to remain friends and not continue with the intimacy?” I really didn’t like hearing him talk like this. I told him we both have been careful to cover our tracks. I’m not sure where this is going. He could suddenly say “I can’t do this and let’s just be friends.”

My thought on this is that I try not to feed on my feelings. I do care about him. I know what we have isn’t going to last forever so I just live every moment day by day. The times that we have known eachother, I keep telling myself don’t get too attach. When that day comes where he or I end the relationship, I will be sad and a bit empty at first. I should be okay. Life goes on.