It's tough to let go of a good thing

Sadly good things come to an end. Affairs weren't meant to be forever. Some can last long, which I find amazing. Being able to sneak around and have those passionate moments whenever you want.

Weekly secret, private meetings. Those have slowly minimized. Gone is the passionate kisses, touching, caressing and heated make out sessions. Most importantly the sex, ah the mind blowing sex. It was good while it lasted. Practically everyday, instant messages were exchanged, those too have lessened. Now they are only once a week or more. The thoughts and reminiscing of the times together are embedded in our minds and a smile appears. Those were good times and memories.

Meeting men and making new friends. I know now what to expect and keep telling myself, it's all about satisfying each other. No commitment! No strings! Just good sex. This sounds heartless but it seems that most of the men I've had conversations with. They were the ones to end the affair. Either they weren't open with their true feelings about this because it doesn't phase them at all or it's like "I got what I wanted, life goes on, deal with it."

I have to be strong and in control but I got a kind heart which doesn't make it easy to do.