Feeling a bit under the weather

I came down with a cold and stayed home. I was briefly on messenger and sent a "hello" to The Artist. He is the guy who sent me an email in the subject line "introduction." We both are in the same situation. Each understanding what we are missing.

I did let him know that I am getting over being dumped and don't want him to be a rebound lover. He understands and will wait until I am ready. For now he is interested in just getting to know. This guy knows exactly what to say to peek my interest.

He said to take care of myself and get better. I got an email from him and he sent me an erotica story. I didn't read the entire thing, because I just didn't feel like it. But whatever I read was pretty hot. For a minute there it looked like something I would write.

How cheating has changed me

In a good and bad way. Let's start with the good first.
Good
My attitude is different not only towards the subject of sex but my every day life.
I'm not as reserved and shy about my sexuality. Like I was in the beginning. Tigg was the one that pointed this out. He said in the beginning it was uncomfortable to open up about sex. As we got to know each other better, I changed. He said I am in touch of my sexual passions and desires. It shows. Men seem to notice this during our conversations.

If I ordered some thing and it's wrong. I usually just take it without complaining. Not any more. I will speak my opinion.
When I am walking with friends or just doing errands. And I see men glancing or looking. I make eye contact and smile. Normally, I look away or just try and ignore them. Of course this is only when I am alone. LOL
A subject I don't like to discuss but will. My husband and I had sex. It was good. And I am working on it where it's not a yearly thing.

Ok now the BAD
Private rendezvous. The mystery. The excitement. The yearning. Secret passion and desire that two people share. Satisfying one another in a sexually orgasmic way.

My translation to the song

I WANT YOU TO WANT ME
ache for me
I NEED YOU TO NEED ME
kiss me, touch me
IM BEGGIN YOU TO BEG ME
eat me, fuck me
Feelin all alone without a lover, you know you feel like dyin

Saturday thoughts

Remembering back to my days when I was single and being sexually active. Yes, I was searching for the man of my dreams. Countless "friends with benefits, booty calls and one night stands." Sex was good.

Now it's not too easy. Scheduling is a major factor for me. Location is another obstacle. Most the men I made a connection with are in the east coast.

Just today I was bored and horny. So I checked out adultfriendfinder. You meet a wide variety of people. Couples, singles, threesomes, swinger, sex at the spur of the moment. I have to admit, it did sound tempting.

I'm lonely and sexually deprived. But I am not desperate for sex that I will just do it with just any guy. Maybe the old me would have done that, but I do have my limits and that just isn't my style.

He was polite

I was checking my yahoo mail and got one from someone not familiar. In the subject line was "Introduction." I'm thinking "spam mail".

To my surprise it was from a guy who is interested in finding a lover. He was browsing the directory for local women and came across my profile and the legs. Who can resist them? Seems that I caught his attention and he sent a brief email. He wanted to know what I was looking for and wanted to know more about me.

I responded back and asked if he used messenger. He did and added me. We got to knowing each other. Oddly enough, it was all about the passion and desire that has been missing recently. As we engage in the conversation, he realizes that I could be the one. We both have been upfront and open. Which is a first for me but then again I pretty much know what I want. At this point I don't have a name for him yet. LOL

We will see where this goes...

Hello..why don't women like giving oral or better yet receive it?

This has puzzled and baffled me and now Rosie. This was the topic today. And how did this come about?

A guy Rosie slept with and who dumped her, instant messages her. He wanted to discuss about sex with his gf. Seems that she promises him oral but hasn't done the deed yet. He's all eating her out but not getting anything in return. He says she is willing to try different things, but she doesn't give oral that good and she doesn't like the idea of swallowing.

Rosie and I were discussing this. First off she needs to practice in order to be better. As for the swallowing. The guy can go on her breasts or ass. Then she can lick it off him and suck him off again.

I then told Rosie that I knew a lot of men whose girlfriends or wives don't like receiving oral.

We both agree receiving oral is fuck-tastic!

I never thought of it

I have been chatting with a few new guys on messenger. They did a search in yahoo directory and found ME. They only read my "Sexual & Sensual" blog. My stories of erotica. Here were their questions:

Do I get off on the posts that you've written?
Honestly, no. Because I never read what I write. I'll proof read it.It comes naturally and as I am typing it, I go through the motions and emotions.

Have you actually done the things that you fantasize or dream of?
No, I haven't and yes I would like to have them happen in reality.

My goodness, he chats?

Ok, there is another blog reader, I have on my buddy list on messenger. Now, he's been on it but has never said much to me. I finally removed him because I thought he wasn't interested or forgot me. I see him on line but I never got a message from him. Until.....
Recently. "Spud" tells me that he is lonely. I tell him I know the feeling. He hasn't kept up with my blog for a long time and he needed to catch up. He loves what I write about and it's a turn on to him.

We had a nice conversation.

Being a butt during cybering

Darling One aka D1 and I had our usual cyber. We had to make it quick because he had a meeting to go to. He starts out slow. Telling me in detail the motions. Caressing and touching. Now being the silly one. I was being a pain. This is how it went:
D1 kisses her neck. Scarlett slaps his face.
D1 touches her breasts softly caressing them. Scarlett kicks him.
D1 pulls her close to him. Scarlett moves away and kicks him again.
He's like "look woman..are we fighting or fucking!"
I reply "both" we both then LOL. So, I then type "pushes him onto the bed, has a condom in her mouth and puts her mouth over his cock cover it." She then positions herself and straddles him, riding nice and hard. He's like "oh baby."

Thank goodness he had a few minutes for his hard on to calm down before his meeting.

He is so irresistable

This is a first, but Mr Goalie and I have had our share of cyber. Last night just blew me away. I never knew he had it in him. We both just let it out. Yea, we were both horny. Telling him what I did in the shower a few hours ago with my toy (this will be posted in my other blog) didn't help. Got him even more aroused.

Then as we are chatting, I'm removing my bra. Then my jeans later. He noticed a pause and wondered what I was doing. I told him and he's like why are you doing that? Not that I don't mind. I had to get into my lounge clothes and it was almost time for bed.

He just purchased a web cam. Kept asking me last night if I wanted to view it. I wasn't alone so I couldn't. He was a bit disappointed and thought about returning it. I'm like "wait..I'm sure there are women that want to view." Yea, what woman would want to see a naked man? I told him A LOT of horny women. Whether he is bullshitting me or not, I think he let's other women see him but doesn't fess up. Why would he had gotten it in the first place? For me???? Hah NOT!

Back to the cybering..he was teasing me. Asking me how badly I wanted him inside. Knowing exactly what to say and making me beg for it. I took the bait and played along. Yes, as this was going on, I touched my clit and did certain things. "wink" Arching my back just a little.
At the end we were both left breathless and said our good nights.

I slept well and I am sure he did as well.

Bunch of horny women

My three amigas aka Wendy, Rosie and Gaby. Sex was definitely a hot subject. I'm shaking my head at the moment because I am in shock about Gaby.

She had this look on her face like a cat does after swallowing a canary. I'm like "wassup?" Oh Scarlett..I am going to go to hell! What did you do? I asked.

Seems that last week, she had sex with a guy in the morning. Then she had a nooner with a co worker she has been involved with for a year and then an ex boyfriend that night. Damn gurl! I looked at her and said "you are my hero!" We both started laughing.

Is that bad she asked? I then said "was it good?" She is like fuck yes! I said "well that is all that matters." Have fun and enjoy yourself.

Suddenly he opens up

Ok, I haven't mentioned this one because I wasn't sure where it was going. We have been chatting for 6 months. Off and on. Just recently, he's opened up. I mean really expressed himself. Sexually. Our conversations have left me saying "wow" over and over again. He shared his passions and desires. As usual, we leave on different coasts. Us meeting in person may not be possible. But he is fun to chat with and venting out our sexual frustrations.

Just last week we got to exchange pictures. He said I was pretty and hot. Damn this guy is one hottie. He told me that he was ugly, well I told him the same. Hah!

A few days ago..I am sitting at my desk at work. He sends me an instant message with a picture of his penis. I'm like whoa? He didn't know that he posted it, yea right. Being all coy and innocent. He removed it. God I didn't want my co workers seeing it. "blushes"

Last night, I am on the computer and he sends me a message, with a pic. This time he has no shirt and hot damn! He's got a nice chest, love the broad shoulders. Oh my god! I kept saying this for awhile. I told him that he has a nice body and have no idea why he hasn't met a woman yet to have an affair with. He says he's picky and cautious. Well I don't blame him, Mr Goalie. Yep, that is his name. "wink"

Eyes on me

Due to the chilly weather, I've been wearing my stiletto boots, which makes me very tall. Today's outfit was black slacks, low waist which snugged every curve of my body. With the excessive workouts and jogging, it paid off pretty well. I wore a maroon top hugged ever curve. Yes, I got several looks as I was walking out and about.

Gabby comes up to me and she's like, I don't mean to make it look like I'm checking you out but gurl, you look might slim and hot today. I went to lunch with a friend and once we entered the restaurant this waiter immediately perked up when he saw me. We are sitting down talking and from the corner of my eye I see the waiter talking to someone but glancing over to me. I just ignored the glance but at one point looked down and had a tiny smile.

Work has kept me busy.

Inspirational words

My thoughts are of you
You have been emotionally distraught
I don't know what words to say
Or what to do to find a way
To reach out to you
I sense how hurt you feel
The pain is oh so real
I know you can make things right
Cause you are so amazing
Sweetest, caring person
With such a kind heart
We can't turn back time
But I'm here, just ask
And I will be there
Right now I just want to hold you..if you only knew

My knights in shining armor

Well the chapter ended on OC Guy. That was quick huh? Short story, quickie. LOL
A lot of drama going on. Awful weekend but I have prevailed and no tears were shed for this guy. I got sex and so...enough said.

During this sad moment, I received the comfort from a group of terrific men:

Opus, who reads my blog and has become a good friend. Even though he wasn't there in person he was in spirit. We even got to hear each other's voice, for the first time. I had him to vent my feelings and pain.

Mr PR. I mentioned awhile back and well he is back in my life. Still interested in meeting me and admits that every time we chat he gets all hard and horny. I learned a lot from him today, more than the other times we've chatted. He has started to become a good friend and felt bad about the whole thing.

Darling One, another reader of my blog and cyber lover. He had some comforting words.

Each one made me laugh and smile. Cheered me up and to be honest..I feel great. I'm going to survive through this.

I know I haven't written much, sorry about that peeps. Not sure if any of you know this but I have another blog that only has stories on fantasies and desires. Check it out, please let me know what you think.

Later that night after the nooner

We agreed to meet at the hotel after work. He got me a key so that if I got there before him, I could just let myself in and wait. I get to the hotel and he wasn't there yet. I put the key on the table, removed my jacket. Started to get comfortable removing my shoes. Then I hear the door open. He sees me and smiles. Did you wait long he asked? I told him I got here 5 minutes ago.

I sit on the couch. He puts his key and phone on the table and walks over to me. Leaning forward to kiss me. As he does this, he doesn't waste any time unbuttoning my pants and removing it. Then he removes my blouse. Kisses me again and unclasps my bra. Kissing my breasts, licking and sucking each nipple he makes his way to my tummy. My body arches a bit and the panty is removed and on the floor. I get up and climb on the bed, on my tummy. I'm angling the clock in a position where it's easy for me to keep track of time. He removes his clothes and looks at my naked body and smacks my ass. He kisses my back and caresses my ass feeling its softness. He then kisses my inner thighs. Turns me over. Spreads my legs and just when he is about to lick my clit he says "babe I can feel the warmth of your body". He starts licking my clit, feeling his tongue getting me all wet and excited. He then starts fucking me with that tongue of his in my pussy fingering my a-hole as he is doing this. I let out soft moans of enjoying. He goes deeper inside my pussy scooping me up and just devouring me. I begin to get louder and hold his head in place, close to my pussy. Feeling it squirm and going deeper. Finally I had an orgasm not once but twice. He is very hard, so he stops and saids he wants to be inside. Missionary? I shake my head no, I smile big and say doggie.

So I lay flat on my tummy and he enters me. I hear him say "oh my god you feel nice and tight." Hmmmm he felt so snug inside me. He then lifts my hips up and tells me to be on fours. I do and arch my ass out. It took him awhile to get a rhythm but he did. I felt all of him inside me, in an upward motion. Thrusting his hips and banging hard against me. I could tell he loved watching from behind his cock going inside my very wet pussy. Both of us moaning with enjoyment. Every now and then he spreaded my ass checks. I know he wanted to do anal but we didn't. Finally, it go so intense my body shook like crazy and I knew I was going to come. I straddled my legs over his leg and he liked this. We both came at the same time. He held me close to catch his breath and I needed to balance myself because we both could have fallen off the bed. LOL

He cleaned up and so did I. Now was the part, I've never experienced..cuddling. I laid on top of him. One leg over his body. He starts caressing it with one hand and the hand he kept swatting my ass. Which I had this cute look on my face of surprise and excitement. He said I looked cute. We stole a kiss or two in between our talks and holding each other. It was nice and I felt safe in his arms. He held me so tight and kept saying my name. I started playing with his ear with my tongue and licking his neck. He warned me to not give him a hickey, which I had no intention to do. I look at the clock and realized I have to go. My husband will be home and I need to be there before he does. We both didn't want this night to end but it had to.

I get dressed. He starts to suck and lick my breasts. I noticed he's hard again. We both looked at each other and he's like "I don't want you to get in trouble." He got dressed as well, to walk me to my car. I lean against my car, we talk a bit. He comes close and we kiss again.

That was it..

Topic during lunch "foreplay"

Rosie was horny and sex was definitely on her mind. She couldn't get enough of her current stud muffin. She likes "all I want is his cock." Wendy is laughing and just helping her along by making suggestions. Rosie wants to pour some caramel on it and just lick that baby off. Wendy suggests something that required a bunt cake pan where you put his cock through the middle and some ice??? I have never heard of this. I am busting out laughing so hard and nearly in tears. These two were just throwing out ideas. And me being a virgin to all this and the "married one" of the group, I kept saying "eww..eww."

Little do they know that OC Guy wanted to use whip cream, chocolate or caramel syrup on each other and just lick it off. Just the sound of it being all sticky and messy terrifies me. But he says we can shower later and wash it off. Now that idea I like. "wink"

Can't they just wait until I am settled in?

I get back from my rendezvous with Mr OC and I signed on in messenger. Darling One is like "well how did it go, what happened, are you okay?" Opus is like "did you do it, did you two have sex?" Mr Painter was the funniest "hello?? I am waiting in suspense how it went and it sure took you long to respond to me??? All three wanted details.

They are so adorable and are very special to me. Real great guys and good friends. I'm happy to have met them.

Our lunch date (nooner)

Yep, OC Guy and I met for the first time. All this sexual tension and talk about this moment was becoming a reality. He definitely wanted me so badly and was hoping for us to have sex but it was up to me. Here's what happened...

I drove into the parking lot. Sitting in the car, I hesitate, should I go or should I not. I know he will be waiting. It's nothing major. Meet and greet. Do a little talking and get to know one another, it's plain and simple. Taking a few deep breathes, I walk into the hotel and he was waiting in the lobby. We hug and get into the elevator. He gets out and I follow him to the room. He opens the door and I walk in first. Took off my jacket and lay it on the couch. He sits in a chair opposite from me. Feeling all flustered and shy, he tries and relaxes me, taking my hands into his, making me look in his eyes as we talk. Beautiful green eyes. He leans forward and we kiss. The gets stronger and it felt good. We both stand up and he kisses my neck. His face rubs against my hair, smelling and feeling its softness.

He walks me towards the bed. We strip off our clothes and he watches me. Now we are both naked and he brings me close and kisses me harder. His hands caressing my body and ends up behind my ass, squeezing it gently. We lie together on our sides, kissing. He brings me close and starts licking my nipples and caressing my breasts. Making me moan with delight. He kisses my tummy and make his way down, right between my legs, kissing my inner thighs and he pauses. I know what is coming next and I start getting wet. I wait and finally feel his tongue circling my clit. Ah, yes there it is. His tongue goes down to pass the lips and ends up inside my pussy. I moan as I feel it moving vigorously inside me and he pushes his head in an upward motion, tasting my sweet juices. He buries his face deep between my legs and I start grabbing his arms, squeezing as I feel my muscles contract. Moaning hard and letting out a cry. My body starts to arch up and he puts his hands under my ass for more leverage, totally eating me out. Then he licked my a-hole and I let out a sound of delight. It was sheer pleasure and I climaxed so hard my body shook and he licked every drop of my juices. He stopped and gave me a kiss.

I started caressing his cock. It was now very hard. I had him lay on his back and I started sucking him off. Hearing him moan. He watched as my head bobbed up and down. I stopped. I told I wanted him inside me. He turns me over and we are in missionary position. I feel him inside me, nice and snug. He slowly went in and then started thrusting. Fuck it felt so goood. Then he did something that I've never had done. With him still inside he lays on his side. We are facing eachother and he starts fucking me. It was an awesome feeling. He got up a bit, grabbed my ass and starting banging away. He leans me back and thrusts hard, the headboard was banging hard against the wall. I held on to it and as we look into each other eyes we knew we were going to cum and we did. I screamed out "holy fuck" and he moaned deep and loud. We lay there gasping for breath. I look at the time and lunch is over. We cleaned up quick and got dressed.

His legs were wobbly and I was a bit lightheaded. Both of us had huge smiles. It was a good first date.

And later that night...

Cuddling

Not sure if I have mentioned this, but with all the men I've slept with including my husband. I've never been cuddled after having sex. Until now....

Someone got lucky this weekend

Okay before everyone jumps the gun..it was not me. My friend Rosie did. She was all perky, smiling, glowing and in a "life is great" mood. She whispered to Gaby what happened but I had no idea and I figured she would tell when the time is right.

Wendy, Rosie and I went to lunch. The restaurant we went to had an apartment building near by or doing some heavy construction because as we were talking and waiting for our meal. We heard some banging but it had a certain rhythm. Then it started to pick up, getting stronger. Next thing you know it, you hear some squeaking. I am trying to hold my laugh but Rosie blurts out "sounds like me and Mike when we were fucking our brains out." I am like holy shit! Wendy knew this already and she glanced at me to see my reaction. I gesture to Rosie, woman you better spill it right now!

She says that she had a great time. She met him at some singles dating service. I saw his picture and damn he is fine! She then gets to the sexual aspect. Saying that he was well endowed and then she did a body language where she clenched her legs together. We all started laughing. I am like, but it was good right? She had this big smile and said "yes all was good."

A few reasons why we cheat

Spouse is abusive, physical or emotional. Husbands can be jerks and wives can be bitches. We look to someone else for attention and affection. Which isn't a wise choice to do because then we get emotionally attached. Your lover may not feel the same and has no intentions of leaving their spouse. It's risky.

Others cheat for the lack of sex. Scarlett raises her hand "oh..oh..me..me!!"
The passion and desire isn't there anymore. The spark has slowly flickered away. The sex is okay but where is the foreplay? Multiple orgasms? Sex drive? Various sex positions? We try and encourage our spouse to try different things and they refuse. Other times we don't say anything because we want to spare their feelings.

Real cute

Mr OC that is. I've been receiving morning e-mails from him in the subject line that reads how many days until we meet. Yes, he is excited to see me. First thing he'll do is give me this big hug and most likely won't let go. Then we will get a kind of feel for each other. And I don't mean touching "wink".

I know I haven't post much lately, especially about the men. I will keep you updated on what is going on. I've been busy with work and once I get home, my attention is to my husband. Which leaves me not enough time for my blog.

I try and squeeze in some thing when I get the chance.

Was it the dog?

I went to visit my aunt and she has this golden retriever. He's about 5 years old. Before I went to visit her, I stopped and got some coffee. So I decided to take him for a walk.

There's this little area with shops and people walking their dogs. He got so excited. We took a little break and I sat where there were benches and tables.

This guy walks by. He notices me but sees the dog. Now the dog is friendly, the guy walks up and starts petting him and talking to me. We exchanged brief conversation. As I rubbed the dog's neck and ears, the guy saw my wedding band. He kept petting the dog and the dog was enjoying it. He smiles at me and says "have a great day " and I wished him the same. Before he walked away, gave me one more glance, smiled and waved bye. Damn he was cute.

I realized as I looked at my reflection in the window. Holy shit! I have no make-up. My hair is just straight and I look like a mess. LOL

Then I am walking the dog across a busy intersection. Two guys in a car notice me or the dog? And they are watching us as we walk by. I'm walking through the park. A bunch of guys are just hanging out. A jogger runs by and one of them starts whistling. Of course she has earphones on and can't hear them. Then they see me and the dog. Of course the dog sees another dog and starts pulling. I am not paying attention to the guys.

That pretty much was my Sunday morning.

Mind & body

Clear focused mind. Knowing exactly what she wants and what makes her happy

Her body is her life
Eating healthy and excercising
Making sure it gets sexual attention whether it be from her or with a partner